But now I'm in a season of learning more about patience than I ever thought I'd know. I am doing things that can have no clear finish line. That's not easy for me. At all.
God has told me to love the process, and I am enjoying the awesome power with which He moves and also the results of the refining process. But I had to ask Him this morning: WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO STOP AND SMELL THE ROSES? WHY?
And He told me: "Wait, trust. Unless I move on your behalf, what results is not the best result any ways. Enjoy this season and know that my time table is perfect."
So I am learning the balance between actively waiting on God and beseeching Heaven's throne like the persistent widow. I am making my requests known to God, while fully acknowledging that He alone is sovereign. He controls the times and the seasons (Daniel 2:20-22). So, Lord, here I am. Smelling the roses (and acknowledging the occasional thorn!) ... waiting on You ... trusting your time ... and doing my best to cry out before You in a way that mirrors Your heart and eliminates any agenda of my own.
i am a doer too!!! thats why thi process is driving me insane. my mind never stops going over how we can make more money or speed things up. i try to find the positive things of it taking so long. i need to pray about that.
ReplyDeleteHurry up and wait already!
ReplyDeleteIt IS hard to wait, isn't it? I couldn't get pg and we waited nearly four years for our first, five years for our second and our third resulted in a m/c but we waited five years for that precious little one.
ReplyDeleteBut when I look at my kids, I realize that if I had had them earlier, it wouldn't be THEM, and I'd have been at a different place in my life, and probably would not have been able to quit to stay home with them, etc.
So as hard as it was to wait, I am on the other side now and I see the wisdom in what God did. Just keep leaning into Him and He'll give you grace to wait for those roses to bloom!