Yearning for Simplicity

Each day I do the same tasks over and over.  I wake up, nurse the baby, say good morning to my precious older two, and start the day.  I spend time with God, time cooking meals, time cleaning house, time doing laundry.  I spend time working on their schooling, time playing with them, time getting ready for Awesome Hubby's return home from work, time talking with my family over the table at night.

And I never feel cheated.

I never feel like I'm wasting my life or marking time.

I never feel like I'm wasting my potential.

I never feel like I'm supposed to be doing something else.

I never feel like I'm not good enough when I'm doing these things.

Okay, maybe that's not quite true.  I want it to be true, but it's not.  

After all, I'm human {oh, so human!}.  There are a lot of times I wonder if I'm allocating my time right; I constantly worry about being to get it all done and not go crazy at the same time.  And I used to fall into the trap of comparing myself to others all the time, but lately I've been better about that.  I think it's because I articulated who I am and who I am meant to be.  Knowing your purpose is a beautiful thing! 

I just want a simple life.  I used to have grand dreams and impossible goals.  I used to care what others thought and strive to live up to their expectations.  But I've been doing this thing lately that changed all that.  I've been walking in the cool of the day in the presence of the One I Love.  I've been accepting His Invitations to Dace with Him.  And it makes such a difference.

I have also been learning to delight in simplicity.  I have just as much fun bonding with the Princess Chef as I used to have going shopping and needlessly spending money on things we would end up donating to the thrift store months later.  We have more fun opening our home and giving the gift of hospitality to our friends than we did going out to eat all the time.  I find such awesome delight in accepting Lil Man's invitation to come out and play whenever he issues it!

And yet, I still yearn for more simplicity.  So each day I go through our home and I remove things we don't use or don't need that clutter our space.  I also do the same thing with the things that clutter our time.  Simplicity makes room for the things that really matter.  It allows you to be who you were meant to be without distraction, which in turn allows you to do all you want to do without hindrance.  Simplicity -- it's beautiful!